A lot of change is happening in my life right now.
The biggest change is that my daughter isn’t home, she’s living in Ireland for 7 months.
and one of my best friends is moving away to Italy… for a year.
and my sweet little office day job is about to grow and get busier.
so it feels like every part of my life, is changing.
My home life, my work life and my personal life.
oh and on top of everything, i’ve been sick.
Like knocked off my feet-haven't showered in 3 days-not sure I'll ever have the energy to stand up again-sick.
that’s a lot right?
And for the past few days I’ve been resisting most of it.
Trying to pretend like I can somehow stop all the change or somehow make it feel like
it’s not that big of a deal because deep down, I don’t want change yet.
I’m just so comfortable with everything and comfortable is lovely.
Comfortable seems safe and warm and cozy.
Ahhhh safe. The funny thing about safe and comfortable is that it can trap you into feeling a false sense of contentment.
Because it’s easy. and don’t we all love easy sometimes? Please tell me I'm not the only one!
So yesterday, after sending my friends a little ‘feeling sorry for myself’ message, my friend Pili told me something.
She said ‘Be comfortable with the uncomfortable’
Be comfortable with the uncomfortable. Is that even possible?
I have been thinking about it non-stop. Trying to make sense out of it because I had this feeling that if I could just actually understand how to do that, I just might be able to get through everything. and maybe even with a smile on my face.
Maybe it means that instead of resisting change, you go with it. Be open and trust in the universe. I know that a lot of change is what led me to my life now and I love my life now. So why shouldn’t I trust that even better things may lie ahead with even more change?
Because growth doesn’t happen in comfortable.
Because big things don’t happen in comfortable.
Because maybe, just maybe, really REALLY good things come of big change.
It’s happened before.
and I think it’s happening again.
If I trust.
so today... I’ve stopped resisting.